to understand me, you need to understand yourself...

i share an emotion...
a story...

and the way you react...
depends on your own life...
your own emotions...
your own experiences...

some people wave off what i say...
with a shame...
with a i care...
with a i understand...

some people cry...
some people laugh...
some people smile...

and so i am realising...
that understanding comes not from just listening...
but from knowing the feeling...
from understanding your own emotion...
to the same or similar situation...

through this...
i do not judge those who i dont connect with...
i jus realise more and more...
as i feel i have always known...
that we are all on different planes...
different levels...
different places...

but at certain times...
different people...
will help us...
will understand us...
and will connect with us...
and will help us to understand ourselves...

the other day...
while walking in a small mall...
the beauty of the simple people around me...
their smiles...
their small gestures towards me...
their humaness...
made me realise...

"somedays i can give up on life, but i can never give up on humans..."
(saying that, of course there are days, when certain humans push me beyond my limit... hehehe...)

or in another way...

"the beauty of humans, protects me from the pain of life..."
(of course this expression is approprite to the moment it was thought, not to say life is always pain... just to carry in those moments when all seems to fall apart...)

those seem like kinda cliched little sayings...
hehehe...

its 2.20am...
why would i be awake this late...?
any aunty/mother figure voice inside my head would say...
"go to sleep boy"...

goodnight...