a few days ago, tired and questioning the capturing of images, i decided
the best way to calm my mind, would be to read the book i had found at
sani lodge... below is the first thing i read...

a beggar had been sitting by the side of the road for over thirty years. one
day a stranger walked by. "spare some change?" mumbled the beggar,
mechanically holding out his old baseball cap. "i have nothing to give you,"
said the stranger. then he asked: "whats that you are sitting on?" "nothing,"
replied the beggar. "just an old box. i have been sitting on it for as long as i
can remember." "ever looked inside?" asked the stranger. "no," said the
beggar. "what's the point? there's nothing in there." "have a look inside,"
insisted the stranger. the beggar managed to pry open the lid. with
astonishment, disbelief and elation, he saw that the box was filled with gold.

i am the stranger who has nothing to give you and who is telling you to look
inside. not inside any box, as in the parable, but somewhere even closer.
inside yourself.

this is from the "power of now" by eckhart tolle...